My life has changed for the better. I can't deny much of that anymore. I'm on a better road then I have been in the last decade. It feels right and proper and no its not easy, But I know its where I am supposed to be.

About 2 months ago I almost gave up. The Devil had me in his grasps and was trying to get me turn away from what was good. I finally came to the conclusion that I couldn't allow myself to end like that because I started to believe all the lies that I have heard for so long in my life. It's almost like god said "OK your ready for these things to finally reach the surface and to confront them". I really wasn't ready as I'd like to think that I was. So I ended up reverting back into my old ways. I stopped going to church, I ignored everyone as I tried to deal with my demons. And even as I was going through that in my life Satan was still having his way with my thoughts filling my mind with more lies. It was very overwhelming for me. He told me lies like (Your unwelcome at Church, No one likes you, God is against you) and so forth. During that time god was still trying to lead me, and in that moment I tried to be obedient, kind and considerate to what he was asking me to do.

God in essence wasn't asking much of me, But it was simple. There was a new person at my work. Her name is Susan. A wonderful woman who I admire and now consider a close friend. You see God is AMAZING!! What else can I say..

But he first asked me talk to her, Not about anything in particular. You see at times I can be really temper mental at work and yet I was supposed to be kind to this woman. So as a few weeks went on and she had the van since her husband didn't have to work that day. I went and had a smoke with her since I missed my bus. So what was supposed to be a 15 min chat turned into a 4 hour chat right there in her van. I honestly don't know sometimes if its just me being easy to talk to, being a good listening or just god opening the flood gates of pure honesty and openness in people. I honestly don't know. But we eventually started talking about faith, and she was quiet torn between her faith and such. So god basically asked me to speak life and encouragement into her life. He used me to reveal His Grace, His Longing, His Loving and unconditional love. From that day forward things moved extremely fast. God continued having me bless and encourage her. God even asked me to give her $40.00 to help her out. She was in need and I wanted to help her. But I did it like god wanted me too, and it helped her. But the next day she gave me the money back. I thought she knew I gave it to her. But she said she couldn't accept that.

And then later that week I had a chance to talk to my Pastor to talk about what I was dealing with and we resolved a lot on the fact of the lies I was believing. Since then I have continued to push forward the gates and the walls that have tried to bind me down.

Susan and I have had several discussions and further discussions on god. God has used me in many ways with Susan. So near the end of June she invited me over for dinner, It was so good too! It was Pork Roast. And I knew that she felt like there was a presence in her home. She told me about after I told her I was going to get her a bible that her cigarette container moved all by it self. She was terrified and me I was like OK we will deal with this.. So that day I went over and then I finally went in the basement and heard tapping in the walls so I declared that it had to leave and then I went back upstairs. I enjoyed doing that :). So then on July 5Th Susan came to my church alone mind you. But I was pleased and a little worried on what she would think of a Pentecostal setting. But she enjoyed it. So that made me happy. And I'm also pleased to say that on my Dad's Birthday July 10Th Susan gave her life to the lord. You also need to understand that Susan was the only one willing to come to my church. Minds and hearts were closed in her house, Her Daughter, Her Son and her Husband. Her Husband specifically said don't even ask about me coming. So as you can see we (Susan and myself) were up against a little opposition to them coming. But they weren't opposed to her going..

But again on July 10Th Leanne and Myself went over to bless her house. It was AMAZING!! It was like a hot poker going through a stick of butter. It was as if the darkness in her home was gone. And then later Susan gave her life over to god. Its very special to me for 2 facts, One being my dad's birthday and my dad giving his life to the lord the last time I saw him before he was murdered. And the fact that Sue gave her life on my dad's birthday holds a double meaning and a special one at that.. After that day it was as if Walls, Doors, Pluming, The kitchen sink, The bed post had exploded and that opposition had vanished. The very next week Susan's whole family came to the church! WOW god is good :)..

Zephaniah 3:17

"The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.
"

So with that being said.. God is good.. And then today god started speaking something else to me.. I asked him how can people move past all there stuff, there pain, there past. Because it's something I struggle with as well. And god simple said. "What is a scar? Is it not still flesh and yet it isn't normal and soft?" so I said "sure I understand that". So he said "Well. I am the one that comes to heal over your wounds and yes you will still remember them. But it is healed and closed over. It doesn't hurt anymore. So I say to you why do you worry about the past? It was yesterday and today is a new day. It no longer has its grip on you". So WOW! As I continue to think of that context I realize that things have been loosened.. My dad's Death, Me getting jumped its past and its healed and yes a scar remains and I still remember. But That was yesterday and today is a new day.. It has no hold on me.. Because I am LOVED I am ACCEPTED I am FORGIVEN and I AM FREE!!!

Praise you lord!!

My god is Living and Active.. What else can I say?

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Chapter #2

Romans 8:5 Speaks to me today..

"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires."

"You can not have a positive life and a negative mind" Wow does that make sense..

God spoke more to me about having a negative outlook and how it has hindered me tremendously..

Mathew 12:33-37

"Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. 34You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. 35The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. 37For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned."

Speaks of the fruit that I have and haven't be doing. There is so much bad things I have said and thought.. I'm starting to feel better and better about my outlook on life.. Its very encouraging to me :)

God is my vital sign.. Its like a heart/pulse or the air in my lungs. I need to spend more time with god and more in the word and prayer.

No new Revelation today.. But I spent about 30 minutes with god in prayer and declaration.. God is good..

I am currently Reading "Battlefield of the mind" by Joyce Maye rs. I figured it would be cool to share my reflections...

Chapter #1

I am very much like John in many respects. Especially having a passive attitude.

1st Corinthians 10:13 speaks to me in many ways..

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

I understand that we fight not the physical battles but the ones of the mind and that even so Satan has placed many strongholds in my life since I was very young.

God has anointed me to preach the good news. I am his workmanship.

Even though I don't have all the answers I know that god is for me & not against me.. :)

Welcome to the Theme Park where my life is your roller coaster...

Someone once told me that I let my emotions control my outward actions. And I think I finally get what she meant. Those things that have so much to do with ones perspective can sometimes be blinded by their own circumstance. For me this is a daily event, work especially. At times it feels like you will never be able to get to leave and go home on one of those bad days. But then I have to remind myself that "Yes" I will get to leave soon. Its all about my perspective..

Today being my day off I've had a lot of time to think things through. I have come out of it with more questions then answers. Some including my dad, my life, my feelings, my actions. Someone once told me that things are refined in fire, And fire you've had.

Ever since I quit World of Warcraft I have learnt that I am a creative person. And that's something I never really knew about myself. Sure I heard it a million times. But I'm starting to believe that possibly in certain times in our lives we take it as blind words, until REAL revelation happens and you get one of those "UH HUH" Moments. There have been a lot of revelation that has happened lately. For example, I have had this CD by Seventh Day Slumber FOREVER!!! The album is "Finally Awake", And man do they mean it. This CD has hit a new chord with me today. Sure I liked the music.. But I actually got revelation from it in my own personal life.. In regards the song "Everyday Saturday".


It spoke to me specifically about my father, Who oddly enough also died on a Saturday.. Odd, But no matter.. But it also explains my struggle to maintain sanity in my life.. But the fact of the matter is that no matter what "God Is still god" and I'm still hold onto that with everything I have. But there is more then one thing that is keeping me standing still. I guess this is what you get when you ask god to help you grow.. In the end I suppose its almost as if I'm being purified of the things that I have buried deep down inside and I'm ready to deal with it. But the fact is I SUCK at dealing with things. As I'm sure some can attest to!

I guess it all comes down to is I really don't know anymore. The fact is that its Amazing that I still stand here. Through times in my life I would rather be dead then alive, Unfortunately that's as brutally honest as it has been. Mind you I'm not stupid, I know what that means. And it is by choice that I choose not to reflect on such flibber flabber.. (new word?).

But I'm really starting to believe in timing, The whole thing with my best friend coming into my life before all things came tumbling down in my life to be a vessel of Christ, The fact that I've had this CD since forever and I'm getting revelation from it NOW, And the fact that the image in this post talks about perspective. You could look in a mirror and just see yourself or you could see things that are bigger then you are. The fact that God had me work on this image for no reason at all about perspective to lead me to write about it, is Amazing. More Revelation please!

This is me signing off now! (CLICK)

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God has had me thinking today about Patriotism. So I decided to look it up, according to Brainy Quote Patriotism means:

Love of country; devotion to the welfare of ones country; the virtues and actions of a patriot; the passion which inspires one to serve ones country.

God reminded me Capt. Richard "Steve" Leary who was a native of Brantford. When he returned home and his funeral was to happen people lined up on Charring Cross to give there final respects. Which is AWESOME!!

Now mind you I'm not trying to detract the Honor of Mr. Leary or other soldiers. But we as a people will Honor someone that we've never met?, never would have noticed if he had not died in this war? And yet when it comes to God, We can't even rally/Honor behind his plans. Yes Mr. Leary and other soldiers have made the ultimate sacrifice for there country. But you know Jesus made the biggest Sacrifice, His sacrifice doesn't have national boundaries, its a selfless sacrifice for anyone willing to accept his plan.

When does the time come when we can rally behind the plans of god? What will it take to ignite the fire in all of us to have the passion for gods country and not our own little countries. Mind you I'm speaking about the church as a whole. Where does it start that we declare under one banner of god's patriotism.

Just a thought.. Also I made the flag in this post for fun. Its symbolic of the light shining through the cross to scatter the darkness..

As I continue to move forward I am continually amazed by God's power to Transform, Save & Restore myself and others to action. I'm currently listening to a song by Akon called Freedom. In which he says:

“Freedom, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom
Everything I have, everything I own
All my mistakes man you already know
I wanna be free, I wanna be free
Won't stop til' I find my
Freedom, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom”

Which I feel is where I am at now in my life. Asking god to bring more freedom from things in my life. Over the past 2-3 months god has continued to transform my life and my mindset at that. I am now free of my addiction to World Of Warcraft because god let it be so. Amen to that.. I have gone from a introverted loner to an extroverted people person. Mind you I was always a people person. But due to my addiction to "World Of Warcraft" I became someone not of myself. For me it was a revolving door. It was an escape from my problems, an escape from my depression. But I would get depressed because I was playing instead of being what I was made to be. I neglected my friends & family. Today I am a different person.

Last week we had 24/7 prayer for the week, It was GREAT!!! God showed me visions of his glory. It was as if I had my head on daddy's lap and he would just listen to me and talk to me. What a unique experience.. Something new.. I'm hungry Lord!

I believe that obedience is success. God Said... You do right?

Well on that fact. I felt strongly that god wanted me to be more creative. In a way he has had me making what I called Stickers.. These stickers are free for anyone to use to declare things over themselves or others. To be a catalyst in their own right. These stickers can be added to your blog, your own site, Or whichever you see fit.. At this point and time, I have made 3 sets of 7 color variation's of "God #1 Dad", "God Loves Me" & "God Loves You". There are many more to come I can promise that. Got Ideas? Please leave a comment and share :) And maybe it will make it as one of the stickers... I have one sticker on this blog right now as well.. So get going :)

Feel Free to check out my little project @ The God Struck Sticker Project

Well here's my new design i'm working on for my blog.. Please leave a comment and tell me what you think of it.. Its still a work in progress... :)