Hello everyone :)

Well so much has happened since August 1st with my post on me still not having found an apartment yet. I was quiet depressed. But you know god really has tried to teach me the lesson of lessons.. God LATE? Man was I so wrong. God is never late. Hes always on TIME! I ended up finding my place 2 days later. It wasn't until Wednesday did I find my new apartment. Its a really nice place just for me. Its $520.00 + hydro. But it has boiler heat so its going to be like $30.00-$50.00 max for the hydro. So that makes me happy at least I can afford that. And at least its not the size of a closet :).

So it being now Monday again and Sunday being a HUGE event for me. I got Baptized last night. And man did I enjoy it. God again has tried to prove himself to me. I mean the experience of doing the baptism was amazing. Let alone with god being there for it all makes it just unbelievable. I felt like I was going to explode. I almost cried. I almost fell in the pool too! Pastor Brian had to hold me up! LOL. Let alone that I had 5 people give prophetic words for me. I don't think anyone had that many that I can remember. I feel really different now that I have fully given my life to god. I know its just a ritual. I know its just making a public statement, but I feel so much of his love inside of me its almost unbearable. But a good unbearable :). I really want to love people and try and help them. Hey I even helped a homeless guy get something to eat today. That makes me feel good. You know I could quote millions of verses or even had read the whole bible during my baptism. But you know what? Anything I would have said would not have been enough to glorified the lord. That's my feeling, but god accepts anything we give him. I love god so much its amazing how god knows me, and on a personal effect too! He helped me find my apartment, he sent 5 people to say something during my baptism. I need no proof that god dose exist I have all I need. God knows my name I know his we have a strong friendship that will never end. And do you know what I say "BRING ON THE PERSECUTION!" I will so enjoy it. I use to fear the persecution I really did.

And let me tell you what my mind was really saying before god actually changed me. When I moved in with my roommate Paul and sure I would attend the church, what is church 1-2 hours on a Sunday night? Big deal. God has never done anything for me, Nor will he ever. God doesn't want to know me. And you know it came back to me last night. I was really playing with the devil back when I live in st. Catharine's. I was playing with candle light mediation which is a pagan ritual not only that but with tarot cards, psychic stuff. And that's pretty dark, No wonder I was never happy. There was only darkness. Never light, Now I can't live without the light nor gods love. I can't ever seeing myself wanting to turn away from god. I would be to afraid to, I would never want to disappoint god. God is my life and there's no way I rather have it. I even try to go anything that has to do with church these days. Before you wouldn't see me dead in a church. Although I just keep forgetting about prayer meetings on Thursdays :|. But I do go to a youth group every 2 weeks on Saturdays. As well as Church every Sunday. My church rocks too! I love our passionate worship it brings so much happiness to me. I have NEVER been this happy in my life.

So I give you this challenge. Try going to a good church try it for 6 months and I GUARANTEE you will NEVER be the same again. There is nothing like your love god NOTHING! These words still ring true today.

I even have made a pack with myself to read the bible from Cover to Cover. I have started already and I want to finish the whole thing. I also pray that god will help me learn and understand his word with clarity so I can bring others to god, this is my new passion! God you are so worthy of our praise.

Also to go back to the baptism. God gave me a word for my fellow baptism buddy Landon. Although I didn't go up and speak on the mic. I still need to tell him. I really should have went up. Landon is an amazing man! Hes 25, a little older then me. He is a very inspiring person. And Evangelist to the end. He helped me crack my shell and actually worship without worrying what others thought. God told me "Landon is the key holder to the doors that hold us back from worshipping, Landon will be the one to break these doors down." Landon did that for me, opened the door to my now very passionate worship. I don't know where I would be without his friendship, he is an amazing and very passionate friend.

Well I better run. God bless you all!

Gamerguy (Evildobbi)