I really can't describe the pain I feel. I miss my dad so much, it hurts so much. I feel lost without a paddle to row my boat to shore. I got to pick out my dad's casket to faith during this time. To not being able to stand and collapsing before the funeral and closing my dads casket to cry more. Like i said on my previous post I spoke to yet cry after that as well. I don't understand why this had to happen. Lord bring my dad back. Bring the judgement of this world so I can be with my dad. The pain is so hard father god.