Tonight was church and it was fun. But as I sat and just dwelt on life it seemed to overcome me with the things that have yet to have closer in my life. As I thought on these matters our pastor asked people to stand up who wanted prayer in regards to what we were talking about. As I stood up reluctantly I began to think of

Luke 12: 22-28

Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith.

Its a verse that comes up a lot in my life. Because as I grow god wants me to trust him more and it seems to get deeper and deeper into the meaning of this verse. As Dave was praying over me god began to speak to me and show me a vision of me in a hopped up go kart and I was driving recklessly to get my way to the goal, for closer in a job, my dad, my family, and so forth. God went on to say "If I wanted a back seat driver I would ask for one". You see we all try to make deals with god, say lets get there the fastest we can take this short cut. You ever have that? Kids, maybe your spouse yelling at you and your like "I don't need a backseat driver". You see god is in the drivers seat. Hes our chiefer per say. He takes care of the road that is less travelled to get us there safely and to teach us all something. Trust is an extremely big issue for me. To trust someone takes a lot of time and a lot of dedication. In my life there are very few people I do trust. God has been trying to stretch me on the trust thing with him first off. And I can't say its easy, blind faith is extremely hard at times and sometimes I don't feel like I'm up to the challenge. So all in all I believe god is saying "Let me drive. I will take you there safely, Trust me!" and I'm trying my best to let him drive. But sometimes that back seat driver bites you in the butt and you gotta say something. But I guess I just need to go for the ride. In gods timing is something I like to hate, but in time I believe that the problems that riddle my heart and my mind will come to a close and I will be made new again.

So in closing I think that sometimes we just need to slow down and listen to what god has to say instead of doing it in our own means. I'm sure I will still try and do it but hey I'm only human :|

Josh