I admit it I'm a slacker. But I can't help it sometimes I'm just to busy to blog. I will try harder (Promise)..

Well its been a while since I've bloged and been a while since my dad passed. (Almost at 2 month now). And man I feel like I've done a 360 and then another 360 and man it wasn't fun. I can't say I've had much fun since my dad died. But I did have a wonderful Christmas with my family in St. Catharines (home town). I got a DVD/VCR player from my Aunt Yvonne. Surprised the heck outta me I tell ya. Got some clothes and some tools as well. So I really had fun with my family. You know its quiet odd that I've had to miss so many years (5+ yrs) without my family. So much strife and now were a mesh. And I feel so much at home and actually feel love for my family. Not that I never did before but more of a feeling sense. Its quiet different. I had to get Saturday off so I could go and man that was a bugger, But I eventually got it off in the end. I was so happy. But I think I've changed so much since my dad. I feel lots of love for everyone. Even for the boy I sponsored from India. And I feel that I'm more appreciate of what people do for me. I can feel god strongly at times as well. I really want to be released and to do gods work full time. That is my desire because I'm passionate about my god and I'm not afraid to talk about it.

I gave my family a small gift which was a coin the size of a silver dollar which each had a bible verse on it. I figured it may have been cheap (all I could afford). But it spread how I feel about god and to maybe plant a seed in them and god will let it grow. Maybe make a wedge in there heart to see his glory and his grace. Plus god still gives me strength every day to continue forth and I just want to be an example to them to show them that god is very real and to see what hes done to me to make me strong. My aunt called me about 2 weeks ago and told me should couldn't understand how I was so strong. (That was my opening) So I went after it and told her of god for about 2 hours. Although she called me a liar and so forth. BUT HEY! I got it out..

I've had a really tough season so far this year. I barley have any food in my house. But people from church are helping me. My dad's death finally caught up with me because I had to take 2 weeks off. And that nudge of 0$ for 2 weeks kinda hurts. I prayed about it and my ex-room mate sent me 50$ to help. I love everyone. God works fast and always in time. I have no worries because he will always provide.

I've been doing really good at work as of late too! Don't know if its because of Christmas but I've been selling a lot and that will make me bonus (Maybe a way god is trying to bless me???) who knows. People say I'm crazy. I just Nod and say sure and say crazy for god. I love how that leaves them speechless (LOL). Its always good to give god all the praise.

Well I better go. Its late... Btw I didn't spell check or proof read its late so If I look like a retard its because I am and tis 3am :)

God bless and peace be with you