Hello everyone :)

Got some fun stuff to talk about today... After this commercial break....... *JOKES*

Well a lot of things have happened in the last 24 hours.

I've come to a new realization. I look at myself and see me a complex human being. And I think i finally understand myself enough to see these complexity's in myself. It really makes me see people in a new light as well. We are so complex and so infatuated with our self's it sometimes sickening. But I believe this is happening because god is changing my views on things. Myself, people, the world. We all struggle with our own demons especially me. Most of the time I don't even want to go to church, revolution (youth group), or my small group. Its how I feel most of the time. But I choose to go because I wish to learn god word and be obedient. It all changes once I get to these places though. Satan tries to lie to me and says its not worth going tonight. Well I say bull and go any way. I love not having to listen to such a vile thing of this earth. I CHOOSE you lord god always and forever.

Now last night at Revolution was a great night. Took me a while to actually get into worship but it was fun. Some really amazing stuff had happened and I got to see god work in a funny way that's for sure.

It all starts with Dave hes a really cool buddy. He dose comedy and is also my youth pastor and also my small group leader. Hes really funny and down to earth. I sometime think hes a little like me, needing to laugh or you get depressed. That's how I am that's for sure :). Any way.. Dave was driving to church for Revolution and he got pulled over by the cops because his tags expired on his license plate. About 6 months past due! Dave said the guy was all stern and unfortunately he could not give him a warning or anything like that cause the city would kill him if he did.. LOL. Lets just say 325$ is the fine. Anyway he was not allowed to take his car, he had to leave it due to the tags being expired. So he went on to ask if the cop could give him a ride to the church. The cop said OK with some reluctance. But here's the kicker. The cop was telling Dave how everyone tries to lie to him and get out of tickets. But Dave didn't, so he started asking him about the church, what happens at this so called Revolution. And even god. So Dave has to pay 325$ for this lovely ticket. Did god allow him to forget to renew his tags? I believe so 100%. When he was telling us all this he said while he was sitting in his car god told him to pray for this officer. So he did out of obedience and Dave went on to say that god had said he didn't care about the fine, nor the money he had to pay, He cared about that cop, for his salvation. God would go to the cross again for 1 person. So that makes sense. Well what ended up happening was this Pastor Brian came up and spoke about giving and said he shouldn't have to pay this fine and we were going to take a donation. Well that being said and done there was more then double the money he needed. Praise god for such obedient givers. So we (the church) were able to bless Dave with more then 650$. He went on to say later after falling on the floor that they had planned a vacation the first time in 8 years since him and his wife (Crissy) had got married and they didn't really have the money to do so, but they were going to do it any how and basically this fine would have messed that up. But god supplied MORE THEN ENOUGH! For him to do so. He began to weep and dwell in god presence. Me and some friends started to pray over dave and than he fell to the floor under gods glory. All praise to god for working in such mysterious ways. Amen to that. For crying out loud it even had me in tears. To be privileged to see god work is like no other. This is the lord I serve and love. And the god of more then enough. I feel privileged to know Dave and to have such amazing people around me to lift me up in good and bad times. And believe me there have been quiet a few bad times. Me being out of a job right now. My dad passing. But you know what? I'm still here god has comforted me in these times.

I also am grateful for my family. My mom and my step dad have been helping me with some money, which helps a lot when your not working. I love my family and friends a lot. Thank you everyone who has stood behind me and been through my hard times and good in life. :)

Now after revolution was fun too! About 2am in the morning, my mom came on and she said she was worried about me and stuff we talked about an hour or so. It was fun and stuff. Shes gonna help by sending me some money on Friday to help me get by. (Thanks mom,dad). :)

During the time I was talking to my mom a friend came on MSN who I've known about 3 years. We talked about normal stuff and then I asked if he believed in god. Well that conversation lasted till 5am :). He basically said no and why. One reason was that when he drowned he didn't see a tunnel of light. I answered to the best of my ability and knowledge. It was a lot of fun. It got to a point where he wanted someone Else's a opinion, So he brought in a friend who has been trying for 2 yrs to talk to him about Christ and god. Then he compared what we said. Later on me and this girl were talking in private and she went on to say that shes been trying for so long to talk to him about it and that it was hard. She said shes been praying for help on talking to him. I believe possibly I'm that answer to that prayer. He asked a lot of good questions. I answered some good ones too! Surprised her! LOL. One good question he asked was "what is your view on Christianity?" I simple said "Christianity is a life style to put it simple. Its not going to church every Sunday. We are to live by example." I had fun answering that question. But a lot of questions came up and I was surprising myself by the knowledge god had prepared in me, by either living through it or by learning from other people. And probably a lot of it was god speaking through me. Later on his friend which went to say is that I was the 2ND person to ever talk to her that she has never met face to face and that god told her that I was OK to talk to! Well hey god speak! That's always good :) Anyway it went on for like 3 hours 3am-6am or so. It was fun he was on the fence but we got him thinking that's for sure. It was not my duty to close unless he wanted to. It is not up for me to push the subject, but to let the holy spirit convict his heart. Make it fertile for planting. Before his friend had to leave I asked if we could pray for him. He said "if you think its necessary". So I went on to say this:

Father god we pray for you in the name of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ
We lift up our friend deejay father god.
We will stand in the gap for him so no harm shall come to him father god.
Father god I pray that you will plant a seed father god. We pray that you will make his heart fertile and cultivated for planting.
We lift up our friend to you god we wish him peace and harmony in his life that he may see your glory father god.
We ask that these strong holds shall fall off him.
We ask that you bring truth to him and that he shall see you for what you are .... Love.
We ask this in the name of Jesus Christ
Amen

I told him that we would stand in the gap for him. And then explained what that meant to him as well. To mean if anyone wants to come after him they have to come through me first :) (Kinda like bigger brother protecting his baby brother type of thing). And if he didn't have the faith that me and his friend would have it for him. I think overall I had a great night to dwell on god and share the good news. For I am commissioned to do so. So that was my night. What a blessing it was.

I hope you have enjoyed my ramblings may god bless you and be safe.

Gamerguy (Evildobbi)

Well I really know I'm a slacker been busy. Lots of stuff to talk about.

First of all I lost my job. Been off maybe 3 weeks. Still trying to get my Record of employment (ROE) from my old job. Still haven't found a new job yet. God has been treating me good otherwise. Keeps me fed. But again that's almost to nill of my food left. I'm some what worried. I feel this is a test to trust god more. I hope I'm up for this challenge. It sure is tough will all these bills coming in and not being able to pay them. Being worried about loosing my apartment. And as it being Easter I miss my dad. Went to his plot today. It was good left a card and so did my aunt and we left flowers. Where he's at it was also vandalized recently before I came a lot of damage. But my dads plot was not touched thank god for that. I've been extremely stressed over these situations though. And I know I shouldn't and just let god handle it. Which I have tried and I am still holding my trust in him to take care of my problems. But of course I have to help myself too! Beth has been on my mind a lot to (my step mom) about all the stuff shes done since my dad has passed. A lot of things that seem suspicious. But I will not judge for it is not my place to do so. I will defiantly let god handle that matter in his own way.

I watched "The Passion of the Christ" tonight. I seen it months ago with my ex-roommate Paul. But I felt I needed to see it again and man it's like a hot coal burning my skin. It still bites like nails. It makes me think of just saying thank you over and over. I mean he took our punishment. How can this world be so blind to not see his love. I mean my gosh what more can one do but to give his life for a loved one or a friend. It makes me cry.

I'm also really afraid to leave Brantford. I honestly do not want to leave. God says stay and if he wants that then I will stay. Its embedded deep into my heart that I NEED to stay in Brantford. I have such a appreciate for my friends I have. But also the down fall is my family is here in St. Catharines. I don't wish to neglect my family. But I will follow what gods will is for me no matter what that means.

Also another thought in my head is a word from Leeann (someone from my church). She had a word for me about 3 weeks ago a day before I got put on suspension. Well actually they pulled me off and made me buddy jack from wed-Fri and then suspended my employment until Monday when they had word of my employment status. Well that never happened and finally got word of it on Wednesday.. But... The Tuesday before I got pulled off from my employment duties. Leeann gave me a word from god that said to paraphrase.

Trust in me,

Don't look for others approval for I approve of you.

God knows all. So I will trust in him to the best of my ability that I can trust. I know god will let things work out in his timing.

So now I wait to hear about my life in Brantford. I ask for your prayers because me being out of a job and no incoming coming in. My food is basically gone and the money I do have left is for my rent for next month. Please pray that I will find a job, find a way to get food for me to eat. And that god will allow me to stay in Brantford (The city of God)..

I hope all is well for all and may god bless your life.