Well, Again I'm a slacker!

Well life has been really busy yet again! Between Church, gaming, and work, and even programming my schedule has been pretty filled and full filling. At church we've started the book "40 Days of Purpose" and so far its a good read. I happened to have a breakthrough at church about 2-3 Sundays ago. God's power was coming over me like a rushing wind for about 10 min and finally I hit the floor balling my eyes out. The lord was telling me all the lies I was saying to myself and saying "NOPE! WRONG! POOF!" and they were no longer a bondage to my heart. Things like "It's your fault he died!","You didn't make an effort to see your dad!","You were a bad son". Which god says was not true and so I will believe him over what my mind or what the devil wants me to believe. For he is all knowing right? Wouldn't you believe someone who simply spoke and this world, and everything in it came into existence? I will choose to believe :). Anyway as that was going on someone from the church was telling me what god was saying to her for me (Prophetic word). And man that was different... What she said was "I seen you and you having a wife and child a son and a big house and you were successful! And your not a looser!". Well I don't know how she knew I was successful maybe the big house. But really none of that matters. Its the son and the wife. The deepest desires of my heart. That being a father some day. I would so love to be a father and give my dad the grandson he will never get to meet or know. But I can always do that for my mom and my step dad :) (LOVE YOU!!!).

I also finished reading a book called "Prison to Praise" its a very good book. If you've never read it give it a go! Really speaks a lot. I also quit smoking which is an on going effort. Which is defiantly not the easiest thing to go through I tell ya. I really feel I'm back in a good place emotionally now too! So I've been more happy then sad these days. So that's a good thing don't ya think? :)

Well I don't know what else to say.

God bless